Nothing to say

I probably don't post more than I want because I don't have much to say. Nothing that doesn't have the air of negativity, anyway. I probably don't have much more to say about my life beyond the many cases of disappointments and terrible luck.

Whether it be through my own inaction or a force I'm not aware of, I always seem to be let down most of the time. I seem to be unable to succeed when I attempt something with earnest, yet recognised for a half-assed job. I don't have any recent cases to cite, though.

That's because I decided at a time I no longer remember, that if I do something it should be filled with earnest. If not, you won't go anywhere. Even if my luck shows otherwise, that's why I feel that I can't bring myself to get a job or go back to schooling. Not yet.

What kind of thing fills me with energy?